Happy Sunday lovely people.
I have not written a personal blog post in a long while, so I thought why not write one now? I am writing this with so much on my mind, and I am not quite sure where to start. There has been a lot of good days, and a lot of bad days in my life recently. I will probably share some of the good and the bad in blog posts as I go along, because all those days have had significant impact on my life, and especially on how I see the future.
For now though, I wanted to share that I have finally decided to start trying to live my life on my own terms. I do not usually like the word try, because I feel like its an excuse for when you know you won’t/can’t do something but cannot outright say “No”. But in this instance, I am really trying my hardest to live my life on my terms. Let me explain: I have always been an empath, with a whole lot of feelings for everything and everyone around me. This usually meant I didn’t show up for myself, or defend myself. All because I never wanted to hurt anyone else’s feelings or disappoint anyone.
Due to the very bad days I went through recently, some very good came out of it: I had to sit in my feelings and feel for myself. I had to give myself the same grace I so freely give to everyone around me. I had to realize that I can no longer keep disappointing myself and not defending myself. This includes who I let into my personal space, who I spend my time with, what I spend my time on, clarifying my boundaries and not allowing any crossing of them. I finally know that only I can give myself the life I want and know I deserve. And it has been so liberating to finally reach this conclusion. This is my new beginning.
I know that this new chapter of my life will be the most beautiful, and I hope to share some of it with you all. I also hope you have had more good days than bad, and that from the bad, good has come.
Have a great week and thanks for reading,